I'm Tired...

I'm so tired of not feeling good enough for someone else!
I'm tired of not being good enough for myself...
I keep saying that I'll change
but I'm as unchanging as the sea.
I WANT to be different than how I am!
I WANT to stop being the envious and I WANT to be the envied!
I sometimes HATE who I am and my pocket knife starts calling my name.
But I've never gone to pick it up and answer its' call
Because I still believe that there is hope for me;
That there is hope for change.

One day perhaps I'll be good enough for myself
Even if I'll never be good enough for all of you...